I think that part of this sudden desire to make things comes from the fact that I am simply starved for change. My mom has always said (reminding herself, of course),
"Change is good." My life has become rather routine- but that's not even it. I just want something new. I started small- decorated my room a little different, moved some furniture slightly, added some things to the walls... it just wasn't enough. I need to change
myself too.
I've been in dire need of a haircut so - why not do something different? Honesty, I would love to get one of those
"scene girls" aka... emo (I know. I said it.) haircuts... I just... am slightly too old- especially to do a 180 on my style; plus, I'm not sure I quite have the
"emo" attitude for crazy hair. So, after I came to that conclusion, I just keep telling myself "Maybe next time." I do that a lot. You would think that I believe in reincarnation with that thought pattern, but I do find myslf thinking just that:
"Maybe next time." I guess it just shows what a procrastinator I am. I even procrastinate when considering my own... being. I am constantly having to remind myself,
"Hello! This is IT." So it's time to compromise with myself. Instead of going totally
emo, I'll just change something minor- maybe add some thicker bangs or a streak of pink- I
am trying to avoid looking trashy or totally emo, however. I do want to hold a job. We'll see I suppose. Hopefully I won't put it off much longer or I might
go Britney Spears on myself. I just need an entire makeover- hair, clothes, makeup, the works. Maybe I should apply for
"What Not to Wear" - I could get my friends to tape me wearing heinous outfits and when
Stacy and Clinton jump me, I'd make sure to act surprised.
Meanwhile, I'll just stick to online pretend-shopping, something I have become particularly good at. I have listed some of my favorite and most frequented sites to the right and will try to share some of my findings. I've found I'm rather good at finding the coolest, most expensive things. To start off, check out
this crucial table (below, too) it is SO going in my future dining room. It's a table, pool table
and ping pong table. I mean, who needs a formal dining room anyways?